
Dr. Gil Porat watches dozens of people die every year, and he's thought a lot about what makes for a good death
or an excruciating one.
The Colorado Springs doc is a hospitalist, a
physician who cares for patients from the time they enter the hospital until
they are discharged - to their homes or to the morgue. It's the kind of job that
could drive a person to therapy.
Porat turned to writing a novel as
his balm, figuring it was cheaper than a psychiatrist and "a bit less
painful than electroconvulsive shock therapy." The result - after seven
years of work - is "The Other Face of Murder," a story of murder
among friends. Porat will discuss the book and sign copies Saturday at Poor
Richard's bookstore.
Though he preferred writing a book
to shock therapy, the experience of being rejected by publishers time and again
was hard for a smart, opinionated doctor who is accustomed to being coveted for
his skills.
"The arts are the most painful
profession out there. It was a very difficult experience to get rejection
letters," said Porat, 35, who still has the boyish face that inspired
nurses to call him "Doogie" during his residency.
He attended writers conferences,
studied the craft and took editors' advice. He finally succeeded, getting
published in April by upstart Alondra Press.
The job of writing may be vastly
different from his day job, but the subject matter didn't stray far from his
realm of hospital hallways, medical mysteries and death. "The Other Face
of Murder" takes a look at the ethics of end-of-life issues through the
prism of two extremely different deaths, and forces the reader to ponder
whether the general definitions of murder and suicide even apply in these
circumstances. The result is provocative, ambiguous and, at times, surprisingly
funny.
Porat was determined to entertain as
he educated.
"So many of the topics I was
trying to cover are so boring to read about unless they blow up, like in the
Terri Schiavo case," he said. "I get to see people die all different
kinds of ways frequently. I do know that there is a good death and I do know
there's a very bad way to die, and both are happening all the time."
He was also determined to avoid
being preachy. He doesn't claim to know the answers to the conundrums about how
we die, but he does know the questions we should be asking: Are we using too many
resources to prolong life a few more days, when those resources could possibly
be shifted to prevention or early treatment? Are we serving the patient or the
family members' sense of obligation? Should we be dying in sterile institutions
or at home? Should we - brace yourself - ration end-of-life care to avoid the
looming health care crisis? Or is the greater risk that we'll allow doctors to
play God?
"I want to start the debate
that no one's talking about," Porat said. "And I want to get people thinking,
and I want to challenge them. People can make up their own minds about what the
characters do and whether it's ethical." The dying aren't a powerful lobby
because they don't have the time or the energy, Porat said, but everyone will
face these issues firsthand eventually.
As if to underscore his point, a
woman at the next table in the coffee shop where Porat was being interviewed
stopped him to ask about his book. Patty Crossey-Ross, 51, is fighting two
forms of cancer, and is also a volunteer who takes her dog to visit hospice
patients. She was fascinated by the end-of-life issues he's discussing.
"See?" Porat said.
"Disease and mortality is going to affect us all."